The Return Home
I arrived into this world in 1967 in Kent, England. I was born a very sensitive child - there seemed to be no boundaries between me and other people’s emotions. I was exposed non-stop to the curious and turbulent world of the energies of those around me. It was often disorienting, and always fascinating, but it would take until adulthood to understand that this was not most people’s experience with the world.
But an extraordinary gift of empathy didn’t always feel like a gift.
My childhood was mostly devoid of the emotional support I needed, and so my little world felt lonely, overwhelming, and full of anxiety. Low self-esteem compounded it all, and I was left with a persistent sense of dread and fear that I couldn’t explain, couldn’t escape. I was given the ability to hear and speak the language of emotions, but I was a long way from feeling at peace with my own. My heart always felt like it was beating on the outside. Vulnerable to every passing breeze.
My sensitivity also gave me eyes that see so much, and that seeing was the beginning of my education with emotions. Even when I felt lonely, my curiosity and imagination thirsted to know the answers to everything, and the people around me were a constant source of insight. I observed people. I listened.
Everything came crashing down when my Dad died suddenly of a heart attack. I was 18 years old.
My world was shaken to the core. What did it all mean? Why are we here? What does it take to be happy? My grief pushed me forward, to keep on learning, to find some answers and a way to serve myself and others for all the time we’re here. As if lead by Grace, every working and learning experience to come taught me one more crucial element of my current practice. Time and synchronicity led me to a powerful holistic method of healing - one I needed most of all.
I trained as a teacher, and specialized to work with kids with extreme behavioural difficulties. Those brave young warriors taught me the link between unconditional love and healing. They taught me about respect, compassion and the power of a fighting spirit. Later, homeopathy taught me the link between the physical, emotional and spiritual realms of healing. My Inca Shamanic training showed me my connection to an ancient lineage, which would inspire me to pursue training in Family Constellation work - another incredible tool for healing.
Then, just before emigrating from the UK to Canada, I attended an intensive in Journeywork, and felt a strong calling to step up to all that I could be. The biggest piece of my learning was yet to fall into place.
No matter how much I learned, until my lack of self-love was healed, until I could embrace myself with forgiveness and compassion, I knew I could never be the healer this life called to me to be.
Practitioner training in Journeywork became the climax of my decades-long search. I would have to let go of my identity - which had always been a person who was unworthy, unlovable, destined to suffer, separated from the source. Who else could I be? I wanted this change so much, but my fear was almost as strong. Held as I was in the light of love, I found the courage to surrender. One deep realization after another, a true experience of Grace, flooded my being, and I watched as so many false beliefs from childhood let go of me, effortlessly, one after the other. Since that day, I know that love never leaves me. It can’t. We are one and the same.
Even when we need it, even when it’s just within reach, we pull back from change, because we think it’s safer to stay the same. But there was a part of me that knew it just wasn’t true. I knew deep within there was a better horizon.
Since those days, everything has made sense. Looking back, it now seems like it was so effortless - there was nothing to fear at all! Life, in all its ups and downs and complexities, keeps on happening to for me as it does all of us. It’s how we react and flow with that life that has the potential to change so completely. The power of peace, to be strong, to be soft, all comes from touching a centre that knows we are always loved.
My mission is to help you find your true identity in Grace. To come home to the truth of who you are: unconditional love. It’s a truth so total and transformative, it’s hard to fully describe until you have experienced it.
It is my absolute pleasure to welcome you in compassion and help you find the truth of your own heart and healing.